No turning back...

...and I don't want to...

Every day of late, I'm amazed.  I'm amazed at the blessings, the sweetness, the joy, the tenderness, the compassion, the love, and the miracles in my life.  So many reasons to smile...

After a long 9 day stretch at work, and a very physically demanding long stretch at that, I end this 9 days with a 4 day weekend, two of which will be spent in a little slice of heaven.  I'm extremely excited, and still incredibly overwhelmed by all the 'new' going on here.. but oh so very grateful.

It's 10:11 pm and I am utterly exhausted.  Of course I am a bit physically exhausted, but everything I am on the inside is thriving and radiant.  It's good to feel this way after so long.  Honestly, I wasn't sure I would even remember who this feels.  And yet, here I am... feeling it in everything that I am, inside and out.  Tired or not.... I feel wonderful.

I.  Love.  My.  Life.

There's something beautiful brewing here...

I wasn't expecting this....

But.. I'm sure glad it happened. :)

More later on this very unexpected turn in my life.

...happy (and very surprised) girl.

Ever seen someone really pale blush?

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And there I was in front of God and everybody.....   *snort*

No really.  It began something like this....

"Bless me, Father, for I have sinned...."

Oh yeah.  And it was a face-to-face confession.  I mean, I was the ONLY one there, other than the Priest, and Fr. Dan walked right past me.  I mean... seriously, at that point the confessional was pointless. lol

Don't get me wrong, I prefer face-to-face confessions.  But some confessions.....

And it wasn't anything 'that' bad, but I could feel the heat all the way up to the tops of my ears! Seriously.

(shut up, brain)

Good thing I go to confession every week!
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It is... interesting...

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How I became completely distracted.
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Now... how the heck did that happen?
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The reason I am Catholic....

And I hung out with a friend tonight who gets this.  :)

A soulful night in downtown Mobile :)

I had SUCH an awesome night!  A friend and I went to Heroes in Downtown Mobile, then to the Saenger Theater to see Eric Essex and Roman street!  Smoooooooth Jazz.  So awesome!  And as it turns out, my friend actually went to high school with Eric Essex and kept saying, "I went to HS with an Eric Essex. This guy looks a little like him."  So I said.. "Go ask him!" My friend finally did ask, and it was the same Eric Essex.  hahahaha.  How cool is that?  Someone was a VERY happy camper to reconnect with an old friend, and to hear that old friend play some incredibly awesome music.  These guys are pretty big too in the world of Jazz.

We had so much fun, and the Saenger is SUCH a gorgeous old building, breathtaking.  We didn't have enough time to enjoy ArtWalk beforehand, but.. there's always next month.

Awesome, awesome, AWESOME night.

Well, darn....

Busy, busy day.... didn't get everything done.  Tomorrow it's a movie, dinner, whatever other adventure... so I may not be able to get on that update until tomorrow afternoon, or very late tomorrow... Saturday at the latest.   But I will....

...it's a moral imperative.

Til then, sleep awaits.

It's time (well, almost)

Big changes in the last few days, perhaps more by this weekend.  But more on that another time.  Have to be at work early, so need to get the critters taken care of and get to sleep.

But it's time to address something here that I've not spoken directly about.  In fact, speaking in generalities on my feelings doesn't help, as has been pointed out to me several times, and it's time to put a voice (at least written word) to my feelings.  It's about healing, after all.  That's what this blog is about, and that is why it was created.  If anyone can't handle my experiences and the effects those experiences have/had on me, then that's none of my business.  Nothing I write here is to hurt anyone else, which is why I do not mention names.  Even so, enough is enough.

But not tonight.  Tonight is about peace and rest, listening to music on my iPod, drifting off into peaceful slumber and waking up to a new day.

I'm one sleepy Boo....

EEKAB00 is no more. :)

Out with the old, and in with the new. And this one fits my car and me...much more, I believe. ;p

What Love REALLY is

O Sanctissima (Songs of Praise)

I wish....

....my subconscious would keep it's opinion to itself and stay out of my dreams at night.  It really messes with my tranquil state of blissful ignorance.

Soooo.... that wasn't a cold?

Interesting.  I'm actually on pins and needles (haha) waiting for my appt on Monday to find out what was wrong with my blood work.  I think I know which of the two, and after some research... I will be shocked if what I think it is.. isn't it.  And if it IS.. that would explain the weird 'cold' I had that lasted only 3 days.  Wow.  I mean, I was kind of thinking that NO ONE has a cold for only 3 days.

It will also explain a few other really odd things going on, and could also be the starting point where we find out, after all this time, exactly what's going on.  Won't explain the TIA (I don't think), but I believe a lot could be linked to this.  If 'this' is what it turns out to be, and.. I'll only know for sure on Monday when I find out which of the lab values came back abnormal.

What if it is.. what I think it is?

Could it be, that after all this time, this one little test, this one [possible] confirmation of something amiss could be the ONE thing that tips that first little domino...that makes all the others fall into place?

Only one way to find out.

On Monday.

Dang the waiting.

Phooey.

DD "The Silent Treatment" and Narcissists or Abusers

Lisa E. Scott talks about the 6 Red Flags of a Narcissist on NBC St. Louis

Can't s'eep

No appetite. Can't sleep. Once I fall asleep I sleep for 12 hours or so. Need to deal with the swelling in my armpit and arm. 

Guess I will lay here and listen to the crickets (and my dog snoring) and try to fall asleep. 

Cuz I s'eepy. 

HELLYEAH - Better Man

My sons posted this on my FB today...

The Reason....

Today...