Other blogs.. Alter egos

In case you guys didn't know--I am making a better effort to post more relevant content on my other blogs.  Meaning, on Boo's Juicy Bits... that's more in-tune with what it was created for--health, weight loss, anything relevant to health, and.. it may or may not get racy at times (just as a heads-up).  All Things Ephemeral.. can be more reflective, or maybe a literal 'alter ego' to this blog.  Either way, I've been lazy in the past because it was made known to me that no one wanted me to delete any of my blogs (3).  So, I was making it easy on myself by just mostly copying and pasting from one to the other.

No more.

I'm stepping up and making a decision to try and keep things separate as possible.  So if you read just one, you may miss out on something else.  Unless I happen to mention it in another...

Can't say for sure how it will all go.  But I do find that once I've gotten one feeling or topic or what-have-you out of my system... I often don't feel like talking about it again somewhere else.  Just saying.  So... keep that in mind if you want to know everything that's going through mine. ;p

Now, THIS post WILL be posted on all three blogs.

Now... If you look in the sidebar.. you will find the links to my alter-egos should you dare to read.  As my sleep improves... there is honestly no telling what I may talk about.  Keep your curiosity in check,  or not. lol  Read at your own risk. ;)

*smooches*

So what does that mean, "Adult content" anyway? And does it apply to me? Pppffftththht. Hardly.

I've no idea.  And how far does one dig into their own personal thoughts and share openly here before the powers that be decide it's 'adult content'?   At first I thought it could be almost anything that you could say or allude to that even remotely hints at anything sexual.  But, that's a pretty big umbrella if you ask me.  And if I were to share ANY of my thoughts, fantasies (within somewhat restricted moral boundaries), or even dreams I may have had the night before, am I then breaking some online moral blogger law?

Settings to 'yes' or settings to 'no'... and who gives a fluck anyway?  I'm not running a peep show here, so no breaking any weird rules there.  So what then... do I have to speak in code?  No change there since I tend to do that anyway.

All I know is that I'm having a weird day, and I guess this whole 'adult content' issue here is just something my mind decided to grab onto in order to avoid the 'I'm feeling weird today' issue altogether.  Now that I've gotten that out of the way....

There IS something bothering me today, something sitting right there at the forefront where it's bugging the crap out of me.  I mean.. really?  But, it is.  And.. it's been an annoyance for a while now.  Not every day, mind you, but there just the same.  While I'm not ready to just blurt it all out, let it just suffice it to say that it is deeply imbedded in one of my biggest pet peeves.  Let's just say that I DO NOT like groups of people who form a click and keep opportunity out of reach of others.  I hate that. And no, this isn't about political events or political leaders or anything to do with the USA or anything of the sort.  This is on a much smaller scale.  And while it deals with adults, it's more along the lines of adults behaving as children, much like I recall in Jr. High school or even high school.

I just don't understand the mentality of the workings for adults who do things such as this, except for the obvious fact that this behavior makes them feel special, different, because they are on the 'in' and others aren't allowed 'in' unless they're already... 'in.'  It's a power thing, and it's just wrong on so many levels.  It would be nice to just look away and pretend I don't SEE it happening.  But I DO see it happening, and.. I'm disgusted by it.  Kind of hard not to be.

So then what do I do with this?  It's really irritating me to no end.  It's both none of my business AND also my business because I could very well be a part of this thing and yet... I am SO disgusted by how it's done and run that I am loathe to be.  I mean, do I want to be a part of something that is run this way and handled in such a way that its very foundation is based on exclusion?  No.

So yes.  This is a weird day indeed.

Still here. Sort of. Feeling adventurously unhinged.

It will take me a few to catch up...  Really not the easiest time for me to talk about everything right now.  Lots going on in life and inside my head.

Not entirely sure where I'm focusing my energies, and that can make it a little confusing here if I talk about it too much.  Or at all....

But when I do... there will plenty to say....

Hang in there.

I am.

Trying.

Sort of.

And damn these dreams.  Wicked cool.  And interesting.  Makes me feel adventurous...and maybe not in the most conservative way.

The feel of the engine, or the sound of whistle in the distance?...

I feel this need to get away, to escape, to experience something totally..."not here."  I need to just "be," and I need to do it soon.  It's critical, and I know it with all that I am.  The one thing I don't know at the moment for certain is exactly how to go about this.  Desperate times call for desperate measures, but.. what does that mean for me right now?

Close calls being what they are, and often lived through someone else (in this case a love one), I was abruptly reminded this past weekend how brief and utterly fragile this life is.  God but how we waste so much time on meaningless BS, while all the beauty and wonder of glorious living either rushes by us like a train... or ticks by like the languid and misunderstood hands of a clock.  Both deliver the exact same message at the exact same speed, yet... it looks so deceptively different.  How is it that we miss this oh-so-important information when we need it the most?  Easy...we're forever immersed in the minutia of the moment, in the meaningless hum and buzz of the machines that drive us throughout our day, our lives, the very machine that carries us to our graves as we watch through tiny, fogged windows of indifference.  IF...we aren't careful.

Pull the cord and get the hell off that train, dammit!

So much harder to do than it sounds.  Well, there is the alternative.  F*cking JUMP!  Hey, you may end up a bit bruised and bewildered, but at least you're not speeding towards that end nearly as quickly as you were.  Right?

Yeah, there are a number of the ways to travel in this life.  Read a book near the center isle.  Grab that window seat and watch as life passes by in a blur.  Sleep (ha! Like none of us hasn't ever tried that one).  Try to start up a conversation with others doing the same (not usually a stimulating conversation, sorry to say).  Or..do like so many and simply stare straight ahead hoping there is some destination other than the inevitable...and wait..wait..wait for the train to stop and deliver you.

I'm not sure about jumping, but pulling the cord...?  I can feel it right there...just right there...at my fingertips.

What do I do now?