Health. I long for that, picture myself healthy in everything I think of and do. And in my dreams as I sleep... I am always healthy, vibrant, doing things, living life! But awake...awake is so damn different.
21 vials of blood. I still have to contend with the story of what that tells and visit those far better at interpretation of the language in which my body speaks. Because I know the voice quite well, and I know the message I've been given for some time.
But it took 21 vials of blood and a 24 hour urine sample test to make doctors hear me, to hear what my body has been saying. I guess in some sick way having the validation in writing, all those pages with abnormal values to back me up... is a relief. Finally, my body has a voice.
I've also found someone who seems to listen---a new primary care physician, a DO. I like the philosophy of DO's and always have. The first experience I ever had with a DO was in Jacksonville, FL about 12 years ago. Was impressed, but I didn't have insurance so couldn't return to see him. At any rate, I found one locally and had my records transferred. He, like 2 other Dr's, are concerned about my liver enzymes being totally out of whack. There are other values out of normal, but these seem to be the most concerning to them. It concerns me as well since I've had a lot of abdominal pain for some time, muscle pain and weakness, etc. We'll get down to the bottom of it. Till then, dealing with house renovations will more than keep my mind preoccupied.
I would write more... but I need to eat something.
Till next time.... enjoy this video....one of my favorites... love the song.... freaky video... and it sounds AWESOME in my car! ;D Music joy! Yes, I'm vegan and I still like this video. ;)

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