Please...

Just finished posting in All Things Ephemeral (Link on right side of this page), and as I read what I'd written I realized just how hopeless the message was, how... grayscale.  I thought, maybe if I took another approach, poured myself into something, maybe music, and allowed myself to go and be somewhere other than in my own head for a bit---maybe, just maybe I'll survive this.  But even as I write here I realize that there isn't going to be a single thing I can do today to elevate me out of this place.  I don't even have the energy to be angry at my lack of control over this situation.

"Somehow, some way, some day..."  I keep saying to myself.  Whatever.  It is what it is and I guess I'll just have to roll with the punches and try to stand up again once I recover my balance.

Well.  This was an epic failure, wasn't it?