In this quiet place

I guess in some ways I've just allowed myself to vent in order to keep from losing my mind.  A lot of us do that.  And every day I try and find ways to make myself think differently, feel differently, and live differently in order to find myself again.  I'm okay with admitting I'm lost right now, and I believe being lost isn't always the worst thing a person can be or feel.  If you're lost, maybe it just means you've wandered many paths to find the right one.  It's certainly a better way of thinking about it than simply taking the stance that you're unable to find you way---no matter where you are.  I'm reaching out, but I can't really say who or what it is I'm reaching out TO.  It is what it is.  Questioning too much right now just makes things far too complicated.

So how do I feel today?  Self-assessment says I'm feeling tired, run down, and I'm experiencing some irritation with these possible PVCs.  They, along with the iron deficiency anemia make me breathless, fatigued, and TOTALLY uncomfortable.  Just scratching the surface of that, because I'm really not in much of a mood to talk about every detail.  And I'm pretty sure it's not what anyone wants to read.

Here I am, then... just contemplating WTF to do next.  Which is pretty much par for the course these days anyway.  Life is a constant weirdness.  What can I say?  (smiling, here)

Well, the next step (I guess) is just more of the waiting game.  I get to see my PC doc on Thursday about the anemia and what, if anything, do we do about it.  I say 'if anything,' because a larger part of me hopes it will just go away.  Yeah, yeah.  Still, why not expect it to resolve on its own, rather than expecting it not to?  Rhetorical statement.

I'm not going to dump everything in this one entry, because it will turn into topic-salad quickly.  That, and it will end up one of those novelettes that I'm known for writing at times. ;p  Be happy I'm sparing you that much, at least!  Getting to the point these days, as you know, isn't my strong point, so it just stands to reason that I, for now, keep the topics somewhat separated.  Easier for you.  Easier for me.

Blah blah blah.

And junk.