I have no idea, and a Halloween selfie.

Where do my thoughts go when I sit down to post here?  Why do I draw a complete blank when the night before, the morning of, etc... I had plenty to think about, plenty to say?  Where do the most important ideas, contemplations, feelings, and so forth actually disappear to when I'm more than ready to get them out into the open?  I have absolutely NO idea.

All that which keeps me awake at night, pondering, seem to slip into the shadows when I'm up and ready to sort it all out.  I mean, yes, there are enough topics I could easily discuss, but my goal here isn't just to talk about the easy.  It's the difficult I need to stand toe-to-toe with.  So damn frustrating.

I suppose if I were to be honest about it, at least one of the major issues is right there in the forefront, and I'm finding myself stepping back from letting it all out in the open.  Just a protective measure on my part, but it doesn't make it okay.  I really do need to talk about a few things.

A blog is a blog.  Maybe that I've come to a deep understanding about how all this, at times, feels utterly pointless.  You know, like speaking into a dark, cavernous void only to hear nothing by my own voice echoing back.

Oh well.  I've been edging towards speaking out-right here for some time.  It's not easy for me, even though I did create my blogs as a place where I COULD actually speak my mind, vent, share, or whatever.

WHY is this so hard for me?!  Seriously.

P.S.  No, that's not really my selfie.  ;)