Being present. It's not always the easiest thing in the world, is it? I mean, every single human being on this planet has to deal with pulling themselves back from their own personal static. It's not about being falsely-focused during a conversation, but rather being genuinely interested, connected, even polite. The static is always there, always real, and it makes us who we are. In fact, that static of our own thoughts is a simple by-product of a complex intellect. And we are all participants in self-indulgence, mired in the buzz and whir of, well, thinking. There's just too much going on in our heads, right?
Wrong.
I can say with confidence that being ignored isn't one of my favorite things, and yet it is a daily energy-suck that refuses to let go of me. I live with someone who is chronically in the throes of his own personal static. Honestly, these days I feel like a ghost, invisible, and as if I have absolutely no voice whatsoever. It's getting to me.
This entry sat in "Drafts" for some time now, and oddly.. it's relevant to what's going on STILL. I'm personally tired of the static I'm surrounded by in my everyday life here with T.
More on this another time...
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